Saturday, December 26, 2009

Another Year

Another Year
Listening to music of years past
My heart beats to a different drum
I'm happy and have found my way through life's maze
It wasn't always easy that's for sure
I stumbled and picked myself up
Nothing seemed more difficult and often I felt alone
Today, I feel wonderful and as the New Year approaches
I have a love that has been with me from the beginnng of time
At least my time - a new beginning where we made it through the storm
Together...
The sky is so beautiful today, bright blue and although my love is not here with me
She knows that I am with her in every way. We are looking at the same mountains
We are sharing the same moon and we are breathing in the same air
But most of all -- we share life's miracles and understand that God walked with us on this journey in order to bring us to where we are today.
There will be many more years, God willing that we will share
Together...
I love you my dear, "Ryan"
With a 'Heart of Love'
Bonnie Tierney
December 26, 2009

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

As I Dine on My Own Words...

It takes great courage to stand up and be counted, especially against such a tyrant as Ahmadinejad. The young people of Iran are to be commended for their strength and determination and I suppose once again, I must eat my own words! I've doing that alot lately -- eating my own words. They don't taste well these days, especially when spoken with such anger. It's not like I've just become angry about him -- I mean, it's only been 26 years and still counting. So when I stated that Iran should have been blown off the face of the earth 26 years ago, well -- I'd like to apologize to the people of Iran for my comments. Your leader is evil and many of those who follow him are evil but to those of you who recognize him as an evil man and one who should be overthrown, I commend you. You have much work to do for yourselves, your people and your country.

Peace around the world is possible and your efforts in rising up against your leaders will move our world one step closer to such a reality. As I dine on my own "words" I will remember you in my prayers as you show the world your courage to defend your right to a true democracy --it takes great courage to stand up and be counted. Somehow in your show of strength and courage to rebel against your leaders, you have removed the very sword from my own "heart."

Sunday, November 15, 2009

A Nation of Cowards To Hold Trial In New York

How ironic that the man who coined the phrase and called all Americans, "A Nation of Cowards" wants to hold the terrorist trials in New York City -- the very city where 3000 people lost their lives. Eric Holder - what hole did you crawl out of or better yet, what country do you hold allegiance too?

Let's spend more tax payer dollars as we begin the circus trial - and oh yes, let's make sure that the "MSK" the so called master mind behind the terrorist attacks, has a jury of his Muslim extremist peers. Then - if the "glove doesn't fit, you must acquit!"

Mr. Holder - you lumped me into the Nation of Cowards, but I am someone who served on active duty with the United States Air Force for 19 years. As one of those so called cowards, I would much rather have a Military Tribunal -- just go to GITMO, hold the trial and then hang all those terrorists. Wasn't this an act of war what they did? Didn't we go to war over it? Haven't we spent enough money on GITMO -- why must we spend more tax payer dollars in Illinois and New York, just to kill them? Lord have mercy -- when we went to war with Japan, we just dropped the big one on them -- killed many innocent people. Today - we are friends and our President bows to them. The difference between Japan of yesterday and terrorists of today is not much -- both wanted to kill Americans. www.outskirtspress.com/LockedInTime


With a Heart of Love,

Bonnie Tierney
Author and Veteran

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

What I Would Have Said to Larry King

It's Veterans Day again, November 11, 2009, and I'm still trying to process in my mind the 13 people who were killed at Fort Hood this past week by an Army Major who just happened to be Muslim, let alone be a Psychiatrist who treats our men and women in uniform. Why must everyone be so damn politically correct?

I was in my office at the Department of Veterans Affairs and just returned from a meeting with the Director when my blackberry started getting newsfeeds one after another about the shootings. (I left my bb in my coat at the office but I did hear the director's bb going off.) I think I began getting the information just after 2:45 p.m. MST. I could hardly believe what I was reading. There were shootings on base and one after another was being shot down...reported killings at the PX, then at a processing center. Information was murkey at best coming in from all sources. Then sirens going off in base housing telling people to remain inside. There were reports of 3 snipers on base killing people. It was exhausting not being able to listen actively to the news, but rather get the information off my blackberry. Then the news came that the shooter, an Army Major had been killed and two others had been taken into custody. It was nearing 4:00 p.m. and time to leave for the day. The final news I received from my friend, indicated that the Army Major was Muslim and that he was an Army psychiastrist.

At that point, I didn't care whether he was John Smith or Mike Anderson -- he was insane because he was a trusted officer taking the lives of our soldiers. I've never been politically correct and I have always advocated since working for the Department of Homeland Security in a previous position that we "NEED to PROFILE" because most of the terrorists today are Muslims. I remember calling my girlfriend after I left work, indicating that the SOB needed to be hung from the nearest telephone pole upside down, in full Army dress, and shot again by all of the victim's family members. I also said he didn't deserve to be buried in the United States. In fact, my emotions got the best of me and I just indicated that after we "killed him again" we needed to cut him up in milllions of pieces and toss his remains all over the middle east.

On my way home, I got a call from one of the producers on CNN Lou Dobbs Tonight. At the time, it was an unknown number calling from New York so I didn't answer the phone. I let it go to voice mail, but when I listened, the producer wanted to interview me about the shootings at Fort Hood. As many of you know, I wrote "Locked In Time - I Still Remember and Always Will" www.outskirtspress.com/LockedInTime. At some point, I'm hoping that they interview me about the book and my PTSD as a result of being one of the officers involved in the identification and processing of the soldiers that were killed in the terrorist bombing of the Marine Barracks in Beirut on October 23, 1983. I'm not a professional psychologist so I wasn't exactly sure what they wanted to ask me. In any event, I called back and told "Emily B" (I won't use her last name, "You might not want to talk to me right now -- I'm trying to process what happened and to be truthful, I'll tell you what I think: That Army Major needs to be hung upside down by his boots and killed again." You have to understand, a military person with PTSD just heard that some Army Major shot and killed troops at Fort Hood while they were in a Military processing center getting ready to deploy. Emily asked me how far I was from Denver to their nearest television studio. I said about 20 minutes. Long story short, I started to go back toward Denver when I got the call back saying they had someone whom they were going to interview. I turned my car around, and started heading back to my home and about 20 minutes later, I receive a call from one of Larry King's producers indicating they would like to interview me. I absolutely love CNN (both Larry and Lou) because each of them tell it like is but being on a TV set with Larry King made it very real. Long story short - I got caught in traffic, made it to the studios just short of the showtime.

What would I have told Larry King: Who can make sense out this killing? Is it possible that the Psychiatrist who just happens to be Muslim was depressed or was he a terrorist. Of course he is a terrorist -- make no mistake about it. He entered a MPC (Military Processing Center) and killed innocent soldiers and to me - that makes him a terrorist. The fact, now later disclosed that the FBI had him under investigation tells me that they were wanting to "follow him" for some time to determine if he had any ties to Alqueda or other Muslim extremists. The government should be held accountable to the fullest for allowing this "ARMY MAJOR" to continue. From a PTSD perspective, I would have never allowed the military to assign that bastard to me in the first place -knowing how I feel about those who killed the 241 soldiers in Beirut. It's kind of like a female who is raped and asks for a female police officer to interview her instead of a male! Is it not her right to request a female based on sensitivity reasons. Maybe this Army Major should not be counselling our military soldiers about PTSD and the fact that the FBI was watching him should have been a red flag to the Army officers in command. The bottom line: I would have told Larry King that our country needs to stop being politically correct and take things at face value. People don't want to jump to conclusions but those soldiers are dead because the Army tried to be "Politically Correct" with an Army Major who happened to be a poor performer and Muslim. They gave him the benefit of the doubt and 13 people are dead.

Always - With a Heart of Love,

Bonnie Tierney
Author and Veteran

Saturday, August 8, 2009

We Live In a Crazy World

Responding to an article in Huffington Post:

To even suggest that Sarah Palin has "anything" in common with Mahmoud Ahmadinejad sickens my stomach! She was not part of kiling 241 soldiers, sailors and marines during the bombing of the Marine Barracks in Beirut on October 23, 1983 -- but he was! He is nothing but a tyrant to be spit upon. He is pure evil and I would love nothing more than to be put in a room with him with a pair of plyers in hand so that I could slowly rip off every fingernail and toenail from his worthless body.Those of you smug people in Washington and around the country who continue to berate Sarah Palin -- remember one thing while you do it...she one of "us" -- the so called "little people" of America who are rising up -- willing and ready to vote all of YOU...out of office (regardless of political affiliation). While I refer to myself as "AirForce1" I am also known as "Bonnie - The Blue-Eyed Blogger" and most especially like to sign my posts, with my real name -- because like Sarah Palin, I own my words.

With a Heart of Love,
Bonnie Tierney
Author & Veteran

Friday, July 3, 2009

NEVERLAND...A Place The World Will Come to Know

The world mourns the loss of Michael Jackson and he will forever be remembered as one of the greatest entertainers the world has ever come to know...but did we really know Michael Jackson? We knew his music, his good works and his love for humanity, but did we know Michael Jackson?

God gives some of us gifts -- the ability to write, the gift to lift people up, to encourage, to sing, to play musical instruments...and then there are those of us who have the ability to "see into" the soul of another human being.

On Tuesday, the world will come together as "one" when we pay our respects to this great ledgend, this beautiful butterfly who touched the lives and souls of so many people around the globe...finally, our "great butterfly" who danced on stage, who moon-walked his way into people's hearts, who sang about the "man in the mirror" will see his dream fulfilled...when the world stands still and steps aside to welcome him into "NEVERLAND" and the streets are paved in gold...and those of us who were so blessed to know him -- to know his soul -- can rest with him. He came into this world to serve and he served well!

Always with a Heart of Love,

Bonnie Tierney
Author & Veteran

Friday, April 24, 2009

Your Wake Up Call Bonnie

You never know how much you want to live until you die! Five weeks ago I had major surgery at the VA hospital in Denver and while everything went well in surgery, apparently they lost me in the recovery room! I remember talking to the nurse after surgery and the next thing I know the nurse is crying next to me at my bedside as I opened my eyes. Apparently, I had low tolerance to the pain medication administered to me and I stopped breathing. She said, "we lost you -- you turned as purple as my uniform." It was obvious she was new to her profession by her reaction but I was elated non the less to be alive. For a moment, I remembered how I had often contemplated suicide over the last 25 years because of my PTSD from my military experiences with the bombing of the Beirut Marine barracks on October 23, 1983. It wasn't until she said I stopped breathing that I realized just how much I wanted to live!

Nothing in life is worth taking your life -- not money, not love, not family, not depression, not bullying and certainly not from our military experiences. I had to die in order to value life, value my health. I suppose God would say -- "This is your Wake Up Call Bonnie" I heard him loud and clear.

I'm thankful to the doctors at the VA who brought me back and I'm thankful for the life I have experienced -- both the good and the bad. For the last year, I have been doing extremely well but I know however many days, weeks, months and years that I am blessed with -- I will value them by "making a difference everyday" in the lives I touch everyday. Whether it is a brief encounter with a stranger, or talking with family and friends -- I will remember that I stopped breathing and now have a second chance at life.

I told my therapist a month ago that I spent the last 25 years "Locked in Time" -- stuck in the past and allowed the tragic bombing of the Marine Barracks that killed 241 soldiers to greatly effect my life nearly every day -- so much that many times I had contemplated suicide. I lost so much time because of my PTSD. I can no longer be held captive to my expereinces, to the memories that haunted me so long. While I will NEVER forget what happened to those soldiers and yes, while I'm angry that even the "Simpsons" rate a postage stamp fromt he US Postal Service and our soldiers who died so senselessly can't even get that honor -- I will use what precious time I have on this earth to live...Lord knows I've sacrificed much for my country...now it's time for me to experience the beauty of our earth and truly live life to its fullest.

With a Heart of Love,

Bonnie Tierney
Author & Veteran

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Replace Toilet Paper With the Stimulus Package

President Obama came to Denver to sign the stimulus package yesterday, but if the truth be known, he could have taken those 1,000 sheets of paper and put them on Air Force 1 to use as toilet paper as far as I am concerned. I can't believe I've remained silent on the way our government is spending our tax dollars. Greed in America is really alive and I trust few people in government at this point. President Obama talks of "saving or creating" 3M jobs...is it saving or is it creating? I'm confused because 800B would give hundreds of thousands more jobs than just 3M people. Help me understand the law of this land. Our banks are getting bailouts and loan sharking at the same time by charging interest rates as high as 29% for many people. How the hell are people going to pay their bills off with interest rates that high? I'm not blaming President Obama for trying to fix the mess that George Bush and the republicans created, but let's face it, corporate America is greedy and while Eric Holder had the nerve to call us a "Nation of Cowards" I believe we are "too trusting." I hope every military member on active duty invites Eric Holder to the front lines in Iraq and Afghanistan -- let's see who would be the coward! Put your "Trust not in our government of fools -- nor the "mighty dollar" but rather trust yourselves and keep a close watch on the people who claim to care and don't." Our politicians, republicans and democrats have let us, the American people down. The only way to get their attention is to vote all of them out of office when given the opportunity to do so. Can I get some of that stimulus package for my bathroom now?